I started YouDidWhatWithYourWeiner on a whim a little over three years ago. I could have never imagined what it would grow into. I fell and love and dove in head first. I spent the first year and a half dedicating part-time-job effort to it.
I spent the next year and a half, after my Grandma unexpectedly died, clinging to it like a life raft in an ocean storm. I drew a line between it and the rest of my life and I’ll be damned if sadness, obligations and lack of time were going to cross it.
You know how sometimes you work at something really, really hard for a long time and one you day wake up feeling like it doesn’t fit anymore? Or at least that it doesn’t fit in the same way?
That is where I am at with this blog. Something is not right anymore and I would rather hide than talk about it. That is why I haven’t been posting for the last couple of weeks.
I owe it to you, my readers, to just come out and say it though. To be honest, sitting here getting ready to pour my heart out to you is the first time in a few weeks I have felt really inspired to write.
The problem I am having is not you, our loyal and lively Facebook community that has generously shared your lives with us these past 3 years. We love you man!
It’s not you, the friendly, helpful Twitter friends that are always there 24-7 to make me smile or help me solve problems.
It’s not the new friends I have made on Instagram this year, the committed fans that are willing to give their time and effort to Google+ despite the somewhat paltry engagement, or even the Pet Blogger community, despite the more recent focus on the business end (did you know you can make money by blogging?) of the relationship.
Nope, it’s me.
I can’t put my finger on why I am feeling discontent though. Two weeks ago, I went from wanting to make some significant improvements to my blog to breaking up with it and never looking back. I tried pointing fingers at this and that for causing the sudden shift in my feelings but I was really just scapegoating. It didn’t help that I have been laying on the couch for the best part of two weeks recovering from surgery.
I took some time to really think about it and I definitely want to stay and work on this – to work through it. I’ve put too much time and effort in YouDidWhatWithYourWeiner, and the friendships I have made along the way, to storm off at the first indication of doubt.
However, something has got to change. Although I don’t want to scare you off with too much personal gunk, I want to share more of my struggles with time and being a Dog Mom in hopes that I can help even on of you out there. I want to return to the feeling of spontaneity and fun that I felt in the early days of blogging. I have a good idea of WHAT I want but am not really sure how to get there yet.
So anyway, things are going to be a big rocky for a bit. I want to keep posting and am going to shoot for once a week until I get all of this sorted out. I may write more but only when the mood strikes. There may be some weeks where I don’t post at all. When that happens, please don’t think I have forgotten you. One of the things I am struggling with is figuring out how to connect with you more, and on a deeper level, not less.
Thanks for listening